Follow Up

Today was my follow up for my biopsy. I knew that the liver samples were benign (yay), so I went in feeling ok. Well it turns out there are several leisions on my liver, they only sampled 2 cause it's imposible to do them all. They did have some fatty tissue, but she never said it was Non Alcoholic Fatty Liver disease. She did say that it could be some sort of congenital abnomality in my liver meaning I've always had it in some way. I only wish I could have remembered what the correct term for it was...I'll call tomorrow and get the right term. But, my main symptom is pain, which I should not feel since the leisions are small, but I DO. It's slowly gotten worse, moving around, even holding Rylen. Also with the congenital defect, the lesions should be on just part of my liver, these are all over the place.
SOOO.....we're off to do more investigative work. I am now going to get a complete look over for cancer in other parts of my body that may be causing the leisions to show up. Today they drew more blood to test, and next Thursday I will going in for a PET scan. I am just praying that they're not making me squeeze in that tiny tube like the MRI. Oh I hated that. Not fun.
I have a list of things I cannot do. The night before, no food after midnight, and my last meal has to consist solely of protein. No carbs, No sugar. No food or drink other than water the morning of the procedure. No mints or gum either. Sucks cause when I'm nervous I eat mints...religiously, since I was like 12, and I'm sure I'll be nervous that morning.
I'll be so radioactive after the scan that I cannot be around my babies till 24 hours after!!! Caden and Brityn have been away at grandma's for that long, but what is my Rylen going to do without me? He's such a momma's boy!! On top of all that, I can't nurse him for 48-72 hrs. WHAT? I mean thank God that he likes formula, but what if he doesn't want to nurse after 3 days of no booby? I am not at all ready to give up breastfeeding yet, not at all.
So it's just so much to think about, and thank you if you've made it this far. I had hopes of getting some definative answers today, after going through all this, and I didn't get them. I'm still in the "freaked out" state. After finding out that the biopsy was benign, I was hoping to not have to hear "cancer" again, but there it is. It's not as bothersome when I talk about it to other people, but naturally when I'm alone and I'm able to really think about it, and a possible impact on my babies, it hits me. Not a good feeling. I do have my faith in God and I pray that everything is just fine, even if I have to travel a long path to get there.